so HxC

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 12:57:07 GMT

life is good.

i am happy.

woo.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 12:44:23 GMT

i kill people.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 10:38:45 GMT

what the fuck is wrong with me?

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 07:31:37 GMT

blah.

confusion.

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 11:18:10 GMT

just shut the fuck up!

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 08:19:41 GMT

im so sick of getting fucked over.

everytime something starts to look up for me, it blows over.

im starting to get used to it though.

oh well.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 05:24:50 GMT

in case you didnt see this the first time...

FUCK YOU!

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 19:00:55 GMT

FUCK YOU!

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 20:29:35 GMT

fuck you.

this is to anyone who has ever fucked me over in any way.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 06:30:18 GMT

sometimes i wonder what would happen if i disappeared for a week.
and didnt have contact with anyone i know.
and met all new people.
if they would liek me more.
if the ones i left would miss me.
or wonder about me.
i wish i was a happier person.
and didnt let things get to me like they do.
i wish i could just let things go.
sometimes i wish i didnt think about things so much.
i wish people would see me for who i am.
and get to know me.
i wish i always knew the right words.
for everything.
i look back on my childhood and miss it so much.
there was nothing to worry about back then.
i just dont know what to do.
with my self.
or my life.

im sorry.
i dont know what for.
but i am.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 05:03:08 GMT

i dont get it. at all.

nothing.

blah.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 20:02:14 GMT

yeah so its been forever since i really updated. i guess ill just give you a quick overview of whats been going on.

well, i now work for Mancuso Productions, booking and promoting concerts. its pretty awesome, most of the time. johns cool, unlike i used to think. i think id like to be doing this or something in this field as a career. i dunno though. also i pretty much dropped out of meramac. whioch is stupid becuase its meramac. im going back next semester, i just decided that i didnt liek what i was doing there. art just isnt for me i guess. so next semester im gonna try some sort of business, prolly some basic business class. my mom doesnt know that i dropped out becuase i dont know how to tell her, which blows.

i feel as if i never see my family any more because im pretending to be in school and have work everyday. so yeah i dont know. good news though, when i started working with john i got to quit my other 2 jobs, so you can no longer find me at hot topic or stl bread co. which rules. :)

ummm what else...

oh i am NOT gay. just in case you were wondering since i was informed that a few friends of mine used to think i was. haha.

lately ive been talking ot this girl alot, who i am definatly falling for. its been forever, since dani, that i have found a girl that i can stand being around for more than like 2 hours at a time. i can talk to this girl and have conversations about anything with her. she is a blast to be around and yeah. i like her. shes a sweet heart. saturday night she didnt go to homecoming for reasons of her own and instead she came with me to the don vito show. vito sucked. he was so gross and nasty and girls were all over him. i dont get it. yuck. i think im going to kill him. haha. anyway after the show me and her left and drove around for a bit trying to find something to do. we made a stop at wal mart and played with the keyboards and guitars and other toys. then we left drove around a bit more. finally decided that i was sick of just driving around so we went back to my house and watched my class dvd, which is just like a alideshow of pictures of my class throughout the years. then i put in ghostbusters part 1. but we both fell asleep. it was so awesome waking up in the morning with her in my arms. i really do like her. so then at about 9:30 she woke up and i took her home and on my way home, after dropping her off, i definatly ran out of gas. haha. it sucked, first time thats ever happened to me. oh well. so last night me and her went to the movies and saw a really really lame movie, called like FlightPlan i believe. it wasnt so good, but oh well. after that we went to her ex's house to get her stuff back. then we drove around, went to mcdonals got some Hi-C Orange Lavaburst, which is pretty much the best drink ever. then i took her home and went home myself. i called her, we talked for a bit then she went to bed and i did as well. :)

today is the tony danza tap dance extravaganza show, i guess ill go to that for a lil but. well see.

and tomorrow is THE FAGS at the creepy crawl. should be fucking awesome, i cant wait. haha. nikki is coming.

this is a long entry.

thursday i believe i am going to springfield to visit scottie and see relient k with hima nd myers. well if i have any money im going ot go. but i should make some money on that fags show. :)

im sure i forgot to mention alot but thats about all i can think of mow.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 06:56:36 GMT

i like her. alot.

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 16:57:53 GMT

i dont want to ever be alone like edward scissorhands. he seems to be happy but i know he isnt, not deep down.

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 09:53:57 GMT

the aquabats were amazing. nuff said.

i got blood on my dick, cuz i fucked a corpse, im a nasty nigga.

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 06:21:57 GMT

yeah i know.

friday...
after school i went to work from 4-5:30 then i called someone to come in and finish my shift so i could go to the losers luck show. i met up with scott, myers and tyler and we went down to miss nights. i used the fake to get in to me and myers went to the bar and got a pitcher of beer and drank that and then hung out and talked to a few people. then when losers luck when on i went back to the bar and got another pitcher and drank that. after the show everyone and their uncle was going to dennys in south county, so we headed there and when we got there the waitress kicked a bunch of people out for something dumb so everyone followed and when i say everyone i seriously mean about 45 people. everyone agreed to go to steak n shake. we took over an entire section there. i saw some affton peeps there. everyone ate and shit then we tried leaving w/o paying but tyler didnt get the memo so we ended up going back into pay. after that we went to charlies house to meet up with matt from next best thing. me him and tyler went to walmart and fucked around then ended up back at the rv infront of charlies. we hung out with matt and drew til about 6 am. i decided i couldnt go home that late so i slept in my car and woke up in a 100 degree car sweating my ass off.

saturday...
woke up in my car and drove home. sat around for awhile and eventually took a shower, and did a load of laundry and washed my car, my moms, and my step dads. made 40 bucks doing that. watched cops and americas most wanted. then i met up with myers and scott at c-wood. we decided to go bowling. we went to brunswick zone. pitchers of beer were only 8 bucks so me and myer split 3 pitchers and got pretty shitty. some girl named katy kept staring at us, she was in the next lane over, she had a retarded b/f. she liked us. we stole her retarded bfs bowling shoes. scott drove my car back to c-wood since i was pretty gone. then i decided to drive home. i made it safely, good news. got home around 2:30, talked to a few friends was in bed at 5.

sunday...
woke up at 6:30 for work, ahh gotta love an hour and a half of sleep. got to work a few minutes after 7. worked til 2. then i came home and showered and sat around, napped then i met up with everyone from my other job, at hot topic for imos and sin city. we won some sales contest so out district manager took us all out. sin city was fucking awesome. i loved it. movie was over around 12. got home and chatted and now here i am. im tired.

i promise ill update more. it feels good to do so. :)

ok i updated, happy now?

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 08:48:35 GMT

so yeah. its been like 5 months 11 days and 14hours since i last updated. well probably not that long but you get the point.

so today, today today.
this morning i was supposed to be at work at 7. i woke up late at like 6:30. i knew i was gonna be late since i would have had to stop by my other house to get a shirt to wear. so i decided to pull over in fenton and call my mom and tell her i was sick and to call in work for me. she called in for me and i turned around and went back home and slept til like 3 in the afternoon. i wasnt really sick but i felt liek crap and would not have been able to function well enough to work. maybe it was because i didnt get home until 3:30 that morning. oh well. its over now. after i woke up i sat around the house for a bit. then took a shower. then headed down to the creepy crawl making a pit stop on the way for a few cases of bottled water. i went to see the snake, the cross, the crown and think thank thunk. all the bands that played were really good. it sucked though becuase no one wanted to go with me so i went by myself. it was ok though i saw a lot of people there, some who i havent seen im forever. it was good to see those faces again. i miss the days when i used to see those faces nearly every weekend. anyways. after the show i went over dans for a bit where everyone was getting "krunk". i dont know what it is but i never feel like drinking anymore. im kinda glad i dont. i played a little bit of halo with meyers, scott and drew. then i came home. which brings you up to date.

tomorrow i work from 12-5 at hot topic, come visit me. then i might go to the steel train show, i havent decided yet.

im really excited for california, its going to be the best spring break.

i think im gonna go to bed and listen to femme fatality.

goodnight.

i hope you are happy now. you know who you are. <3

its been so long...

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 07:38:04 GMT

fuck you livejuornal.

ill update some other time.

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 00:10:28 GMT

Everything About You Survey
Created by Crimsontear and taken 7446 times on bzoink!
Personal Information
First Name//	David
Age//	18
Gender//	Male
Nickname(s)//	Beags
Hair Color//	black with blone streaks
Hair Style//	long...im so metal.
Eye Color//	brown
What is your favorite
Color//	pink? black?
Game//	halo
Song//	at the moment, The Diamond Ring by Adair
Music Video//	big pimpin
Animal//	giraffe
Sport//	golf
Country//	canada looks sweet.
Movie//	true romance
Food//	pasta or rice
Friends
Best//	dan, murph, scott, tyler
Funniest//	helfers is funny
Coolest//	dan, he has lip rings, hah.
Sweetest//	tyler, i riso you ty ty
Kindest//	tep
Annoyingest//	we all know who.
Dullest//	rick, lol i love you rick.
Stupidest//	haha i dunno thats mean
Most Intelligent//	hmmm? scott?
Athletic//	haha hmmm...
Relationships
Boy(Girl)friend//	no
Are you in love right now//	no
Do you have a crush//	maybe
Do you have a stalker//	i hope not
Do you miss someone right now//	yea, family.
What do you do
At school//	sleep.
At home//	sit on my computer
Outside//	dance.
When you first wake up//	take a shower.
What _____do you hate
Food//	mayo
Color//	white
Hair color//	green
Tv show//	family guy
Clothing style//	hoosier
Movie//	jay and silent bob
Emotions Right Now
Are You Happy Right Now//	to an extent
Sad//	maybe a little
Grumpy//	nah
Annoyed//	yes
Angry//	nope
Sick//	no
Lonely//	a tad
Bored//	why do you think im doing this?
Have you ever
Made your own religion//	haha yes once.
Written backwards//	nope
Written your own magazine//	never
Drawn art//	always
Got angry with a game//	haha yes
Played Lacrosse//	yea in gym.
Broken a bone//	my thumb freshman year. thanks comer
Dyed your hair//	yeap
Put in contacts for no reason//	ha no
Swam alone//	yeap.
Things that come to mind when you read...
Intelligentence//	need to find a way to use mine
Stupidity//	allen w. (a-money)
Depress//	phychology
Blood//	emo
Blue//	the sky
Gray//	old people
Sword//	the stone that me and tlyer pulled a sword out of.
Golf//	been a while
Soccer//	bosnians
Yellow//	money
Socks//	tylers socks.
Ribbon//	ribbons and sugar
Random Questions
Play Sports, if so, what ones//	golf
Have a lot of friends//	sida have alot of people i guess i would consider friends, but only a few close ones.
Write good//	when i want to
Eat a lot//	too broke
Like the day Friday//	for sure.
Like the month December//	i love the winter
Do you(or are you)
(DY)Give good advice//	i try
(DY)Talk crap//	haha no.
(DY)Play a lot of games//	not really
(DY)Wear hats//	sometimes
(DY)Like to be outside//	always
(AY) Always mad//	no
(AY) Always happy//	on the outside
(AY) A good friend//	i think so
This or that (Last questions)
Night or day//	night
Snow or Rain//	snow
Stars or the Moon//	stars
Ocean or Pool//	ocean
Boat or Plane//	plane
Books or Magazines//	magazine
Yu-Gi-Oh Cards or Pokemon Cards//	im not answering this
Blonde or Black Hair//	black
Green or Blue Eyes//	both are pretty
Pants or Shorts//	pants
Pop or Rock//	rock
Punk or Emo//	emo
Tatoos or Piercings//	tattoos
Necklace or Ring//	ring
Clouds or No Clouds//	none
Art or Literature//	art
Jeans or Baggy Pants//	jeans
Singing or Dancing//	singing
March or May//	march
Halloween or Christmas//	christmas
Coke or Pepsi//	coke
Hug or Kiss//	kiss
Create a Survey \| Search Surveys \| Go to bzoink!

winter time girls writted by DCB

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 05:18:19 GMT

Yeah...I like it when the girls stop by.. In the winter
Do you remember, Do you remember?
...when we met..That winter??

[Chorus]

New Found Glory ,had a bunch of hits
Jack in the Box makes me sick.
And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the winter,for the winter
I like girls that wear American Eagle,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that winter..
Since that winter

[Verse 1]

Hip Hop Marmalade spic And span,
Met you one winter and it all began
Your the best girl that I ever did see,
The great Ron Artest Jersey 91
When you take a shit you smell like a bong
Donnie Osmond wrote a whole bunch of songs
Call me Stevie Wonder cause I can't see baby
Sumthin in your feet went and drove me crazy
Now I can't forget you and it makes me glad,
Left one day and then you came back
Stayed all winter then went back home,
Macauly Culkin wasn't in part 3 of Home Alone
Fell deep in love,but now we ain't drinkin
Michael J Fox was really really stinkin
When I met you I said my name was DAVID BEAGLE
You look like a girl from American Eagle

[Chorus]

New Found Glory ,had a bunch of hits
Jack in the Box makes me sick.
And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the winter,for the winter
I like girls that wear American Eagle,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that winter..
Since that winter

[Verse 2]

Grape Pez,orange crush,disco star boogie
Used to hate school so Instead i made nookie,
Always been hip to the game boy Style
Known to act wild and make girls cry,
Love 18 visions and the girly singer
Remind me of you because you rock my sisters world
You come from Alaska where the eskimos grow
They drink melted ice and live in an igloo
You love german, irish polka music
I took off you pants when you were 4 years old
There was a good man named Right Said Fred
Ill feel much better baby when you're dead
You love doin drugs and snortin Coke,
I like the way you laugh when I tell a joke
When I met you I said my name was DAVID BEAGLE
You look like a girl from American Eagle

[Repeat Chorus]

Bridge In the wintertime girls got it goin on,
Twurk and thizzle to a Gangsta rap song
Wintertime girls are the kind I screw
I'll steal your honey like I stole your virginity

[Verse 3]

big rotten shrimp and pixie sticks
Your mother takes me back there oh so quick
Get you crunk off the hook like my man Mr. Whippit
Think about that winter and I bug,cause I miss it
Like the color green, franks and beans,
Pussy Pink slippers and a bunch of weens
Call you up but whats the use
I like it in florida,but I hate orange juice
Came in the door, you looked like a whore, i think im on to you you
but I'm really not fo sho
When I met you I said my name was DAVID BEAGLE
You look like a girl from American Eagle

[repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

In the winter girls come and winter girls freeze
Some are really sexy and some are butt ugly,
winter girls come and winter girls freeze
Some are really sexy and some are butt ugly,
Wintertime girls got it goin on
Twurk and thizzle to a Gangsta rap song
Wintertime girls are the kind I like
I'll steal your honey like I stole your virginity

[Repeat Chorus]

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 05:32:10 GMT

SavedFromTyler: u know....the cumshot definitely isnt as good as it used to be
SavedFromTyler: thats for sure
Adiverdescends: its getting there buddy
SavedFromTyler: i liked it alot better back in the old days, when it was just a trio
Adiverdescends: we have a song title now
Adiverdescends: yea it was fun but you were embarassed of us
SavedFromTyler: yes, so i see
SavedFromTyler: i was not....u didnt give me alot of time at all
SavedFromTyler: i would have added eventually
Adiverdescends: u huh
SavedFromTyler: david, i want the cumshot back in my life
SavedFromTyler: without it...
SavedFromTyler: the seamen just sorta drips out
Adiverdescends: i knew you would try and come crawling back
SavedFromTyler: well.....lets face it, jizz just isnt as fun without a spring kick behind it
Adiverdescends: this was a band decision tyler.
Adiverdescends: you gave it up too easily
Adiverdescends: we knew you werent dedicated
SavedFromTyler: i have more dedication in my infected toe than rick or dan ahve in their entire bodies
SavedFromTyler: ha
Adiverdescends: but see they are dedicated to the cumSHOT! and thats someething you werent
SavedFromTyler: how so?
Adiverdescends: and they are embarassed like you
Adiverdescends: arent*
SavedFromTyler: i never said i was embarassed
Adiverdescends: you were tyler, you were. i could see it in your eyes
SavedFromTyler: david, all i could see
SavedFromTyler: was the cumshot
SavedFromTyler: in my eyes
SavedFromTyler: :'(
Adiverdescends: and you lost sight of what was important
SavedFromTyler: that i did
SavedFromTyler: and i apologize
Adiverdescends: im sorry to say that its too little too late
Adiverdescends: im sorry.
SavedFromTyler: me too

im bringing a knife to a gunfight...

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 06:03:35 GMT

today was lame except i got a job at hot topic in west county mall. about time i get a new job. i go in tomorrow to fill out paper work and such.

so i just finished watching the movie Blow. i had seen it before but i really took it to heart this time. its a real tear jerker. all george ever wanted was for his daughter to be happy and for him to be happy with her. in trying to do so he fucked up and ended up in jail. he wanted to give something to his daughter that isnt real. money. when all he really should have gave her was love, not saying that he didnt love her but love was all he needed to give her. toward the end of the movie just before george goes into jail he records a tape for his dad thanking him for being a great dad and saying he wished that they could have spent alot more time together. thats where i lost it. i realized i need to spend more time with my dad. i love him so much and rarely see him anymore. it used to bee every other weekend, now its more like every other thursday and the occasional sunday afternoon.every time i see him he tells me that he misses me and that he wishes i was around more. i miss him too. alot. and ive decided im going to be around him more. my dad has taught me so many things in my life, much like his dad did for him. no matter what i do or the decisions i make i know my dad will not judge me and will always be there for me. someday i want to repay my dad for everything he has ever done for me growing up. honestly he was and still is the greatest dad ever. im so lucky to have him in my life, i just wish i could have more of him inmy life. but its going to change. if it doesnt ill regret it in the long run. he always did without so i could have more and i respect him so much for that. i love you dad and i always will. thanks for everything in my life, without you i dont know where i would be.

roses, post cards, and machine gun kisses.

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 19:52:47 GMT

decent weekend.

friday was a really good time. i met up with scott and dan around 6 and we went to the affton district soccer game. some bosnian told scott he wanted to beat his ass becuase he is annoying. that was funny. affton won the game. after it was over we headed back to dans, where there happened to be a rabbits head laying on the living room floor. Wu-Tang apparantly ccaught it outside and brought the head in for everyone to see. then in the kitched were all the insides and guts of the rabbit that Wu had shit out. i picked the shit up so donna would quit freaking out. murph finally made his way over to dans and we decided to get a case of beer, so donna went and picked me and murph up a 30 pack of miller lite. we went downstairs and started drinking after about 2 shots of peach schnapps and 8 beers i was pretty tipsy. so we decided to all go to the affton hockey game hammered. we get to the game and there are 3 police officers selling tickets and me and murph both had brought beer in with us in our pockets. luckily they didnt see them. murph puked in the parking lot 3 times. haha it was so funny. me and murph were both dancing and hving a fucking great time at the game. after the game we went back to dans and started drinking more. tina called me so i told her to come over so she came over and drank with us until dan passed out in his room and me, murph, and tina passed out talking about anal sex in the third person.

saturday i was really unproductive during the day, but i felt productive. i did laundry, made a flyer for the battles and r. babbott show, and burned a cd. at about 2:30 i met up with tina over at dans house. we drank a few beers and just hung out. dan got hoem from work and then rhe pretty much had to leave right away for his show. so the whole band met over there. it looked like they all hated eachother, but they get like that before every show. so eventually they all left and me, donna, and tine were just hangingout until murph got there. at about 5:45 me murph and donna headed down to the creepy crawl for the show. the show was great. novella did amazing, im proud of my boys. it was sad because it was moderndayhero and lexingtons last show. it was a goo one though. dani was at the show. and yea i dont give a shit about her anymore. now everytime i see her i am just really disgusted by her. its sad but its the truth. murph told me that if she said anything to him hed prolly punch her in the face becuase he said if someone is fuckign with me they are fucking with him too. but she didnt say anythign to him. he tried to get her too though. haha tina was ready to kick her ass too. i mean come on, the cripwalker? haha. i love my friends. so after the show i went back to dans becuase i didnt really wanna go to corys apartment. but i got sleepy at dans and just came home.

today i have to call ruth and meet up with her so we can figure out what we need to order for business class. then im going to go to dans for his family birthday party thing. should be fun. free food and beer. plus frankestein will open presents.

i dont want to go back to school tomorrow.

ill update tomorrow.

On the count of three everybody over dose...

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 04:49:43 GMT

"she's as loose as a goose"

today...
i got out of school today at 2 because i had an eye doctor appointment at 3. contacts are great i love them. i have to go back next thursday to make sure everything is ok with them and if everything is ok they are gonna order me more.

on my way to the eye doctor today i decided to take a stroll through my old neighborhood in mehlville (since my eye doc is out there). i was driving on forder road about to drive by my old school, but there was something wrong. MY SCHOOL WAS GONE! where was bernard elementary? it had been replaced by a huge brand spanking new school. it was so depressing. so then i took a drive my the old house. i miss it so much. some of my favorite memories of growing up are in that house. on the bright side, there was a really hot chick standing on the porch. i wanted to go talk to her and be like "so yeah. this is my old house you know." and see if she would invite me in, haha. i didnt though.

after the appointment i went to tylers house and hung out for about a half hour then my dad called me and asked me if i wanted to go get some dinner. so i met him and my sister at ice & fuel for some grub. i really miss my dad. he is such a great guy. i told him that he was a swinger tonight and he said yea you know me. hah.

after dinner, i went back over to tylers. we made fun of his grandma and made her say bad things for a little while. then we went up to west co mall to visit old scottie. we saw john and shawn at the mall. good guys. tyler drove his van into a big pole as we left the mall. good times.

now im home.

i think i have made college plans! i believe me and dan are gonna move out to california and go to art school out there and live in an art loft somewhere. dans wants to be a photographer and take pictures of skateboarders. and i believe im going to go into graphic design. both of our moms dont have a problem with it. so we'll see how that goes.

tomorrow should be interesting. ill update this weekend.

i cant believe she gave me alcohol!

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 00:51:15 GMT

so its been probably a month since i have updated. alot has been going on. kinda. maybe.

- bush won the election. bad news. 4 more years. it makes me sick.

+ i need a job. i applied at several places. hot topic was the first to call me back. i had an interview today. it went really well. scott (the manager) said hed call me either this weekend or early next week to let me know if i got the job or not. im pretty sure its mine.

+ i got my haircut. i got the front and sides trimmed up and the back is cut a little shorter than everything else. i think im gonna take the back a little bit shorter.

- i miss being able to talk to dani. it makes me said that she wont talk to me or be my friend becuase i wear eyeliner.

+ i get contacts tomorrow.

+ my mom gave me 20 dollars to brush my hair last week.

- the new he is legend cd isnt as great as i thought it would be.

+ the new hopesfall cd is very good.

+ saturday is the lexington/moderndayhero/novella/crimsonaddict show. me and tina are getting hammered before the show and then heading down there. should be fun. everyones gonna be there.

- doctor appointment december 28th to see why i shake so bad.

+ the chemistry is coming back!

+ fear before for christmas.

+ ive been seeing alot more of jen lately.

+ i have the best friends ever.

+ new found glory.

- havent seen my dad in a while.

- rain.

+ cold weather.

thats all i can really think of for now. ill start updating more frequently.

p.s. fuck you live journal.